Wow...so it has been a while. I have completely lost sense of blogging lately due to school and other stuff in life. I hope this starts changing as I want to do the effort to mantain this blog.

So something was in my mind a lot this week: How God has us go through things in order to teach us stuff, but then we need to be re-taught every so often. This has been a constant struggle and cause of frustration in my life, if it is not one thing, it is another, but I always seem to follow the same pattern over and over again.

This week, I realized one thing. How I tend to worry so much about money. Recently, I got my hours cut at work (which didn't make me happy at all), it was bound to happen since the summer was over and my work only allows me to work so many hours during the school year, but I was given the oportunity to continue working some of those extra hours even after the summer ended.
Well, I got paid from work yesterday and my paycheck was a lot smaller than it had been since the beggining of the summer, which right away sparked my "I am freaking out about money! I have less than I had grown used to! Oh nooooooo!" mode. I tend to do this panicky thing in which I think about it all day and worry.

After the worry-session, I paused and thought "Wait a minute, God is in control, He provides, He always has and always will" and suddenly this peace that I could not understand took over me and I found myself calm and remembered that I need to rely on Him, always.

It is always funny because I worry, and I know many people who have it a lot worse than I do and honestly, I am not too bad myself. Even in times when money seems short, God has provided exactly what I need for my needs. Isn't that how it always happens? I know we all go through all sorts of things and God reminds us of how He is in control of everything. I think about the times when I have faith and how everything, even if the world is against me, that He is always there...even in those times when I doubt Him, He is still there.

Maybe I shouldn't worry so much, maybe I need to be reminded to always trust Him, no matter what situation is in hand.