I went to Mexico City to spend Christmas with my family (which I do almost every year), and some of us went to the pyramids of the ruins of Teotihuacan, which is about an hour and a half from Mexico City. It's the home of the world famous pyramids of the Sun and the Moon. We climbed them both, the pyramid of the sun was challenging, a lot of steps and at a very high and steep altitude, but the one of the moon was the harder one. It's maybe less half the size of the sun, but the steps are HUGE! I would calculate at least 1 step of this one equaled 3 regular steps. It was hard, but when I reached the top, I felt great and accomplished (and a little tired and winded).
Sometimes it is the same in our walk, we face trials and challenges, but once we get over them you feel a lot better and realize there was a lesson that God had for you.
Over the past few years, I have been learning and growing a lot at church, and it seems that just now the fruits of all that hard work is slowly paying off, as little by little my pastor has been giving me more responsibilities and things to do. He says that he has seen me grow and I'm becoming a good leader.
Sometimes I wonder what God wants from my life, I always wanted to do ministry stuff, but it seems to be changing depending on how my growth is, but I know God has something out there for me to do and He seems to finally be revealing it to me. It is interesting how sometimes we take our measure of time and think that is what determines God's. He is out of our concept of time and He knows when the best time for us to do things is.
Patience is something I have had to learn the hard way. I always wanted things yesterday instead of having to wait, but when you wait, the end result is always better. I am glad I never had things my way when it came to the things I wanted to do ministry-wise, if I had then maybe it wouldn't have work out the way that they were meant to, they weren't God's plan for my life and I thank God for the times that He has had to pull me back and put me on hold and told me to wait.
I think of the apostle Paul, the great man that spread the Word to the gentiles, even with all of his training as a Pharisee, God still held him back and had him be trained for 3 years, before he even went out to share the Gospel of Jesus Christ. I see myself going through the same, I thought I had it all figured out and that I could do everything, but God has showed me completely the opposite.
So, wait on the Lord, it is worth it. He knows when the best time for all that you do in life it, and it is not necessarilly when you think it is the best time, because our pride can tell us many things. Close your eyes and ask God to guide you and to fully equip you for whatever He wants you to do.